Do you find yourself struggling more than you have in months? Searching for the reason you feel the way you do? Find yourself feeling lonely even when you’re surrounded by people and unable to focus on anything? Feeling angry with yourself because the rest of the world wants you to be happy?
How does depression really feel…
“I’ve reached a low. I feel helpless, hopeless, and lonely, like I’ll never be able to claw my way out of this dark pit I’ve managed to fall into.”
“Every day takes so much effort to push through. My depression is not as bad as it used to be, but it’s still always there. I can always feel it. It waits inside my body for one thing to go wrong and then it picks at that problem more and more until I’m bleeding uncontrollably, and have another breakdown. Then a lot of days it decides to just flip a switch randomly and cause sorrow without reason; crying without any cause. Those days are hard. You must keep moving even though you feel like hiding away from everyone. You don’t know how to help that sort of sadness because without a cause how do you find a solution? Sometimes distractions just aren’t enough.””
What friends and family need to understand about depression…
“There are many other complications from depression. I don’t feel like people fully understand it. When they hear depression I feel as though they only think of the things that are portrayed in the media; sadness, hopelessness, not wanting to do anything. There’s so much more involved than hat, especially since every human being is different and has been through different experiences. In that way every person that has depression, is having a different sort of experience with it. Depression is just a vague term. “
“I constantly feel guilty or that I am a mean, bad person because of these outbursts and the hurtful things depression sometimes cause me to say. It’s in these moments I get cold and distant. I am not myself.”
What it feels like to connect with those who can relate…
“This entire diary is like water for a parched soul. It’s so natural to be back writing about what I & we all know best. I humbly thank you all for welcoming me back with open arms. There is so much healing, love and diversity here. I love it!!!”
“I’ve been struggling so much. I know what it’s like and the worst is feeling like you have nowhere to turn in your darkest moments even though people have offered to be there. I hate the place of nowhere out and the frustration of feeling like I’ll fail. It’s good to surround myself with people like those on Treatment Diaries – always makes me feel less alone.”.
Living with depression or any mental illness does not have to be isolating. Join us for safe and anonymous sharing of those struggles which trouble you and follow you everyday of your life. We see you for how you are feeling on the inside and we are always here to welcome and encourage you!